rebound and resonance echo in vain,
nothing is left at the end of the unchained me...
It's raining heavily in my mind,
I'm stunned, I'm standing dead, my vision is blurry,
Despite my determination, the pain is still penetrating,
The bonds have come apart and dying away every day.
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I had already closed out my heart... Why did I open it again? I fell for it, hook, line and sinker... Now everything's broken again, even more pieces are missing now, shaking with anger and despair, my body keeps trembling, I feel nauseous... my temples are flaring... I cannot even feel the pain in my left hand anymore, just a dull sensation... the only reason why I know its there is bleeding, the skin has already come off from punching the wall so many times... wouldn't be surprised if I broke a couple of my finger again...
Why was I so stupid to open myself like this, precisely at the time when I'm at my weakest... I think I'll go make some makeshit splinters, my pinky and ring finger do seem to be broken after all...